It’s the People Inside that Make a House a Home
So my brothers moved out, and it’s been just me for the past 5 days…. I’ve been in a funk since he’s left & I hate being home alone.
Yet, my brother said for now it’s time we go our own ways. To discover what we really want in life. He’s living his life passionately, following his dreams, and encouraging me more than anyone to follow mine.
He is my rock, my foundation, he understands me better than anyone in this entire world.
Not to long ago when my life turned to hell, he was the main person to help me through it.
Today when I got off work I seen a picture of a man at his baby shower, he was standing there smiling with his arms around his pregnant girlfriend.
The man in that photo was the same man who abused me
So as you could see I was a little distraught
My head was spinning in circles, I was thinking a 1,000 thoughts per second, and touched on every emotion there was.
I knew I had to silence it.
I wanted to drink
& I wanted to drink a lot
I wanted to feel wanted, I was about to make some decisions that I would soon regret.
But I took a deep breathe, I pulled myself together and rolled out my mat
I laid there and stretched, feeling every ache and pain
I embraced it
I breathed through it. It made me feel as if the pain I felt was so small.
I am proud of myself
So proud I’ve literally come to tears
There’s a peace I find at the end of practice, it is like stillness after a storm
I have strength and I have hope
I will continue to preserver
The greatest lesson I have learned today
-Learn how to make yourself happy. When you are sad rely on you and no one else to bring that happiness back. Learn how to change your perspective around, this will benefit you far more than anything else in life. It is self love. Self respect. There are far to many people in this world who lack it. Do not let your self be one of them. Do not turn to others to pull you out of the abyss you are in, what if one day no one is there, who will help you then?
You have you.
Remind yourself of what you want I’m life
I want to be strong
I want to obtain as much knowledge as I can
I want to be Independent
I want to build good relationships
& fill my life with good people
I want to make time to exercise on a daily basis
I want to be a little chef in the kitchen & eat healthy
One day I’m going to own a house in Mexico
Have my own greenhouse
Have a family & an amazing husband
I’m going to travel the world
I will help with relief programs in Africa & India
I will have a positive effect in this world
I want to climb a mountain
Learn how to fly a plane
Make 120,000 a year & grow bigger
I want to ride an elephant
I want to touch the hand of a gorilla
I want to leave footprints all over this earth
Your thoughts control your future, if you can control your mind you can control your life
Do you ever just feel so good, so much joy, so much love, and inspiration that you just feel as is your heart is going to explode
Follow what makes you feel good & bring positive thoughts and energy wherever you go
When you can find your inner light, it will radiate from within and shine upon all others